The fear of failure has stopped me saying anything, but it’s been slowly leaking out over many channels recently and I’m on a radio show in the US tomorrow…and based on another podcast interview last week…I will just spill the beans.
On 31 December, with the New Moon in play, I was sitting on the lounge thinking about what impact I could make to my life in 2021.
We have 365 days in a year, and if I was to make 1 change a day that could truly transform my life what would that be?
I’d been playing around with what I was proud of each day – so I asked myself, in 365 days time, what change could I make that I would be super proud of, and giving up chocolate came to mind.
Chocolate has always been a huge part of my life, kinda like sleep – I was never giving up either. Seriously everyone needs a vice right? But do we really. Could life be the vice? Could the simple joy of watching the grass grow, seeing a flower in bloom, listening to my son laugh – could that be the vice?
It’s one of those foods that consume me, not the other way around (although I do eat it) and I’ve found over the years, the foods that I can’t stop eating are the ones that I need to stop eating because they’re not fueling my body – they’re depleting my body.
Inspired by Lisa, who, on a significant birthday year, has given up alcohol for the entire year, I wondered if I could stop eating chocolate for 365 days.
The idea that 365 days starts with one day, and we move through it one day at a time, I said yes to myself.
- I see the times when I would reach for chocolate, and then I get to look at the behaviour that’s going on for me.
- I see the stories in my head about how I ‘just need chocolate’ and ask myself ‘really?’
- How, ‘one piece won’t hurt’ and again ask ‘is that true?’
- I had ice cream two times – one was mint choc chip (it was pretty average tasting) and chocolate confession (that was divine but my belly wasn’t happy the next day – OMG), and
- I had 2 x hot chocolates while we were away on the GC – I experienced serious bloating, so no more for me – for now.
Life is about choice. I choose to eat well for my body 90% of the time, and if that becomes 50% because we’re away, it’s ok, because I’m still eating better than perhaps I would have in the past and it’s not forever.
To keep me accountable and to explore what 365 days looks like, I’m writing a daily blog over on Medium. I share this only because you might be interested, I’m writing this for me, not for anyone else.
Will this be forever, I have no idea and again, nor do I care. This is what I’m doing now and it’s supporting me to be a newer version of myself – is that for the better, who knows, as it only matters what I think of myself and I’m happy.
