Years ago my Dad said to me ‘you work hard all week, going to the gym and eating well, then on the weekend you blow it. I don’t get it’.
My Dad’s a considered man. When I say that, I mean he’s lovely, kind and thoughtful and rarely does he say things that make me re-look at what I’m doing. I guess having 5 children (3 of them girls) tells you that they’re going to make their own decisions, some good, some not so good, but at the end of the day if they’re all ok, he was ok.
40% of the things we do are automatic
– Gretchen Rubin
Do you notice when you pick up your phone? Do you notice when you put another piece of fruit or cake into your mouth? Or does it just happen and you wonder ‘how did I get here’ or ‘I feel so full, I didn’t realise I’d eaten so much.’
I want to let you know before you read this, that I’m going to be talking about my period. This has been a closed subject in my life for a long time and I’m sure I’m not the only one. Please know, I’ll be describing situations that have happened to me, some will be funny but perhaps for some, they might be uncomfortable or confronting. I’m sharing this to bring awareness and I’m not asking for advice or guidance, I’ve got that sorted. If you read this post and it resonates with you I’d love to hear about your experience. Please also remember, that in some cases, these are my words 30 years later – it may not have happened quite as I’m describing it xo
Do you ever say something to your hubby, wife or partner like ‘seriously, can you turn the light off when you’re not in that room anymore?’ and then within 24 hours, you leave a room and forget to turn the light off? Or have you ever critised someone for constantly losing their keys…and then you do it too?
When life is in flow everything’s going great, it feels like you can achieve anything and the days will go on forever – tip toeing through the tulips, so to speak. But then you stub your toe, things start to go haywire and you feel like you’re in this spiral going down and down and down, perhaps occasionally popping your head up to breathe for air.
We know that the quick fix isn’t sustainable, right? A quick fix might get us through the next 5 minutes or the next hour or the next 4 hours but the issue will come back again and again and again, until we take the time to go deeper, look inwards and truly feel what’s going on.
I’ve been on my journey of self-discovery for over 2 years and I’ve definitely learnt a lot about myself, other people and the life I want to live. I also understand that my journey will go on forever and that’s a really beautiful thing. Our world is full of incredible and diverse opportunities and as you dive deeper you uncover more to learn, its glorious like that.
Have you ever found yourself in a situation where something isn’t serving you, so you completely flip the other way?
I’m reading a blog post by Glennon Doyle Melton titled ‘I need to tell you something’. I’m exactly 6 paragraphs in and the statement ‘that you’d never betray you again’ stabs me in my chest. It goes right to the heart of my pain and its like I have finally found the strength to breath. That sentence is exactly what I decided to do 3 years ago – find me and never let go.