Chapter 16 – Spiritual awakening

I’d been a fan of Human Design for a few year, it makes sense to me and I can see how it plays out in my own life. 

In late 2021, my friend Kylie Wolfig was going deep into it, doing all the courses, learning all the things, it was incredible to watch.

Kylie’s Human Design type is a Manifesting Generator, like me, so when we’re aligned to something everything can move fast and this was exactly where Kylie was at.

Kylie did a Human Design reading for me, and you can hear all about that on Episode 116 – The Magic of Human Design with Kylie Wolfig. I also got her to do a reading for Chris, and this reading confirmed his desire for mastery. No matter what Chris does in life, he has to master it. If he’s making potato gnocchi you won’t find a lump in it – anywhere. If he’s building something, like our deck or retaining wall, he takes his time to make sure it’s a perfect as he can get it and if there’s a problem, he’ll pull it apart and re-do it.

This is, generally, totally opposite to me. When I make a recipe I don’t worry if there’s a bit more flour in the bowl than there should be – it all works out, or a fun conversation Chris & I have is around 100% and how you can actually have 110% – which Chris totally disagrees with. 

The percentage issue came up when Canberra was in a drought and there were signs around town telling everyone the percentage of water in the dams. They were around 50%, and then we had this massive downpour which raised the dam percentage to more than 100%. Chris was like, ‘that’s not possible, you can’t have more than 100%.’ I laughed.

Reiki

Also in late 2021, I started working with a Reiki Healer. I’m Reiki 1 & 2 qualified, so I understand Reiki and I was keen to tie that in with massage. This person did both.

The first session was great, I really loved it but there was a feeling that it wasn’t the right place for me.

I did a couple more sessions and they helped me process something that had been around me for a while, I was grateful for that but then the signs came that it was time to let it go and I did.

I was given a massage voucher by my clients that Christmas, which was wonderful and interestingly at a massage place I’d looked at going to but hadn’t. 

I booked in for an energy healing massage and stayed open to the experience. It was amazing. Jackie asked me if I wanted to use cards, and no, I didn’t, I didn’t want to talk. So she just worked on me, letting me know that when she’s clearing energy she burps so I call her ‘Jackie, my burping massage lady’ – LOL.

Chris wonders what she charges to fart on people, ha ha.

I was seeing Jackie monthly and every experience was uplifting to me. My medium in Canberra had said to me if a massage hurts then the masseurs is out of alignment, I was never in pain with Jackie.

I always left with some guidance and interestingly one time when I was expecting guidance none came – so that was my lesson to look inside rather than looking outside for the information.

I had a massage with Jackie just before I travelled to Melbourne and she said ‘I spent most of the session trying to pull your energy down.’

‘I’m off to Melbourne tomorrow for an exam I’ve been preparing for it since last year.’

‘Ah, that will be why. Ok then can I suggest you get out into nature, hug a tree, walk on the grass, you need to find ways to ground yourself.’

‘Ok thank you.’

I picked up Teddy from school that afternoon, came home and walked barefoot around our backyard.

I found out later that Jackie was a Reiki Master. What we put out into the universe comes to us, we just need to be patient and allow it to flow to us, not force things to happen.

Melbourne, Kinesiology & RAW

In the weeks leading up to my exam, I had this feeling that something big was going to happen in Melbourne. I had no idea what it was but I decided to stay open to whatever it could be, and also that it could be nothing because perhaps this ‘big’ thing was coming from my mind not my soul.

I was going to have dinner with my clients whilst I was in Melbourne, and one of my clients was flying from Canberra.  She’d decided to book in with a medium while she was there, so I wondered if that was a sign, that I was meant to see a medium too.

However when I went to book in with the medium I could only get business appointments, not personal appointments. That didn’t feel aligned to me.

I messaged Kylie and told her what I was feeling and then asked her if she knew any Kinesiologists in Melbourne. I actually have no recollection of asking Kylie about Kinesiologists and I have no idea why I wanted to see a Kinesiologist, I’d never seen one in my whole life.

Kylie knew a woman called Anne. I messaged Anne and she could fit me in on the Friday, I just had to get there.

I Ubered out to her place, having never met her before and having no idea where I was going, but I trusted. Anne welcomed me to her home and brought me into her work space.

I filled in her intake form and then we talked for about 45 minutes, at least. Anne gave me a background on Kinesiology and, I didn’t know it at the time, RAW Energies.

She talked about how, through the work she does, she works on 12 parts of the being. She explained the difference between conscious, unconscious, subconscious, spirit and soul etc. using massage as an example, she said, ‘you know how when you have a massage you feel great?’

‘Yes.’

‘And then, maybe the next day or so, the pain or tension comes back?’

‘Yeah.’

‘That’s because the massage moves whatever it’s moved out into your aura, but it hasn’t cleared it from your aura so it can come back.’

‘Interesting.’

‘What I do removes whatever we’re balancing and whilst you can experience a deeper level of challenge, you can’t experience those same issues again in the same way.’

‘Ok.’ I was listening intently, absorbing it all and thinking, I have no idea how any of this works but I’m keen to give it a go and see what happens.

We continued talking and I wondered when we were going to ‘do the work’, but what I realised was we were ‘doing the work’ because I couldn’t remember why I came and then Anne said something and my why flooded back in.

Now you’re probably wondering what it was but I can’t tell you. Not because I can’t, it’s because I can’t remember and that’s the energy work. What I know now is that once the issue is cleared, it’s gone – just like Anne said. I’m sure I could remember it over the days after the session, but then it disappeared. I find that to be true now that I do this work on myself, and I really can’t remember it as soon as I’ve burnt what I was working on.

My Kinesiology Session

We then got into the physical work, and Anne had me sit up on her massage table. She muscle tested herbs to identify the ones she needed to work with and she showed me how she knew.

Aside from the muscle testing, she asked me to hold my left arm out straight and push up against her hand that was pushing my arm down. I could do it. Then she put a vial of herbs in my right hand and asked me again to push my left arm against her hand and I couldn’t. I had absolutely no strength – none. She was able to easily push my left arm down to my side.

‘WOOOWWWW’

‘Did you see that?’ Anne asked me.

‘Yeah, that was so cool.’ I said.

She did it again with another herb – same thing happened.

Then she rolled these wooden things up my back and got me to lie down.

She said, at two separate times, 2 emotions to me. She asked me if they meant anything to me, and I remember looking up at her like I was an 8 year old child, thinking I was going to get in trouble from Mum, scared to answer and said ‘yes.’ 

Then she asked me where they’re playing out in my life now, and again, I felt this wave of shame and disappointment over me and I told her. Again I felt like that 8 year old girl who was going to get in trouble from Mum.

Anne never said anything, she just did her work and then she was done.

I had this experience but I didn’t know what had happened or what was going to happen because of it.

I sat in Anne’s lounge room with her after the session chatting and admiring her beautiful crystal sound bowl. It was one of the biggest sound bowls I’d ever seen. I didn’t play it, even though she said I could, I just sat there and when my Uber arrived I headed back into town.

I spent the rest of the afternoon in reflection. Grabbing some lunch at the hotel restaurant and listening to two men talk about possible upcoming opportunities for Fox Sports. I caught up with my Canberra client for dinner and then headed to bed but I couldn’t sleep. I had a lot of ideas coming to me so I wrote them down and tried to make sense of them, there was no sense to be made.

The ideas seemed good at the time but what I learnt was, it was coming from my head and once they were outside of me I could get rid of them, to allow myself to listen more deeply to my soul.

Did I throw them away immediately, no, a leopard doesn’t change it’s spots overnight and my ego was telling me ‘this is something, it means something.’ 

Maybe, maybe not.

 

My next step

I continued to work with Anne and things started to happen, they just happened. It was weird and exciting.

After being raised Catholic, and disconnecting from that religion, it was challenging for me to bring spirituality into my journey. To be open to everything I am now, I had to look at the difference between religion and spirituality and I’ll reflect on that journey in the next chapter plus what else was happening in my sessions with Anne.

You can check out everything about my Project 22 over here and Chapter 17 – My Witch and her Cauldron.

 

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