When life is in flow everything’s going great, it feels like you can achieve anything and the days will go on forever – tip toeing through the tulips, so to speak. But then you stub your toe, things start to go haywire and you feel like you’re in this spiral going down and down and down, perhaps occasionally popping your head up to breathe for air.
Like everything in life you don’t make a huge leap and then arrive at your destination. I can definitely say if that was the process then we would all, generally, choose pretty amazing and wonderful things to leap to. My journey was a collection of small steps and when you reflect on them you probably think – anyone could have gone south and if only I had of stopped myself earlier…
I’m reading a blog post by Glennon Doyle Melton titled ‘I need to tell you something’. I’m exactly 6 paragraphs in and the statement ‘that you’d never betray you again’ stabs me in my chest. It goes right to the heart of my pain and its like I have finally found the strength to breath. That sentence is exactly what I decided to do 3 years ago – find me and never let go.